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Saturday, January 30, 2010

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Hey there...So yes..I've made the calls,set an appointment..And it will be this coming Tuesday at 1.30 p.m..Yes it is this Tuesday,2nd February,the day before my Graduation Day..Who cares...I gotta do what I gotta do..So,Mum given her blessings..Which means,85% chances of me getting it..A Mother's blessings always play a major role in a child's success..Agreed?Let's just wait and see what the future holds for me..

I've been missing my Lovelies..Terribly...I wish and demand that I see you bitches soon!Haha...And then we'll do some bitching okay?I haven't only been missing my Lovelies,I've been missing hanging out with my BL "siblings"...Yeap..

Apart from that..There's a few more that I miss like hell in heaven...Not saying it out....But I know I miss them..

Current mood check : Sad :(

I Miss You...

Labels: What A Girl Is To Do?

2:10 PM Z

Thursday, January 28, 2010

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A little boy said hello to me cheekily..Mind you he was with his mummy.. Haha..I must be too hot..

Anyway..Yesterday,after my appoinment,I received a shocking SMS..From Sweetheart..Her dearest Grandmother had passed away.. Innalillah wa'innalillah hiraji'un...I called her as soon as i read it..It must be devastating..I remembered when I lost my grandmother..But,we must all know that flowers don't always bloom and blossom..When the time comes,it'll withered.So does those who lives..

Just know that,we'll be here for you if you need anything..Dan jangan lupa dalam setiap sembahyang yang kau jalankan,kau kirimkan do'a untuk nenek kau..Aku akan lakukan yang sama juga..Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan dia ditempatkan disamping mereka yang disayangi Allah.. Amin Ya Rabbal Al'amin..

I promise you that I shall give you that hug I promised,when I see you.. Hang in there...I know you're a strong girl..

Labels: Only prayers I can give

5:03 PM Z

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

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Okay...I am so done done sone with the interview!OVER!!! Haha..
So there's only one thing left to do..Since I already told Mama
about it..and everytings alright...So I guess only thing to do is
set an appointment and proceed...K..Roll!!

Labels: Over and done with | Proceeding

9:55 PM Z

Monday, January 25, 2010

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I Read Your Blog

Yes..I have already read your post..And it's a sweet one Love..
I appreciate that you appreciate our much appreciated full of
appreciation appreciated friendship..That,throughout the years
have blossomed into a sisterhood rather than a best friends-hood..
And always know that you two,you and Dee,are always second
in my heart,equally,after my Mum...There's no first or seconds..
You two are at a draw position..Haha..Equal!Kapeesh?

Anyway..I just wanted the both of you to know,that we have all
come a long way..

I've known Dee since seconday 2..Always sort of bullied by you!
Haha..Now..We're stuck with each other..How cool is that?!!Ahah..
I have always wondered,how things go by working things out till
we,who were once mere classmates,now a bestfriends' of one
another.Life is wierd in working..But I'm glad that it's wierd way
has brought us together..I'd be missing alot if I hadn't know you..
Missing you truck loads of sotong kuritAA!!See you soon!!And..
What happened to your blog seh babe (pig in the city) haha!..

Amoy!Teh peng satu!Haha...Babe..Lets just forget about whatever
happened in secondary 3..K?Whatever happened back there,I'm
sure it happened for a reason..The reason is,it made our bond
stronger..And no one can come in our ways now..Haha..We became
closer than before..Like I said..We've become more of a sister to
each other than bestfriends..So..Just forget it laa!!haha..We did
some cool,fun and awesome things together throughout the years..
So lets make a more greater ones in years to come..Alright?

THAT applies to you as well Dee!Understand?And to my two crazy
loving bitches who will be bitching about alot of things when we are
together,I LOVE YOU laa asses!!Haha..And..Thank you for being
my part time "buah hati" ("boyfriend") since I'm still SINGLE...
AVAILABLE....AND LOOKING....Haha...Thank you Nur Diyana
and Nur Ashiqin for being patience with me,for caring and never
failing to understands me and for your unconditional sisterly love..

Labels: Should I or Shouldn't I? | I love u my Lovelies..Period

3:36 PM Z

Saturday, January 23, 2010

.|.Back With A Talk.|.

Back With A Talk
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Hey...Something yesterday triggered a little something in me...
I want to talk about girls,boys and relationships...In general..
Nothing to do with anyone dead or alive..No no...Haha..
Case Number One : It's like this..A girl likes a boy..Lied
to a boy,pretended to be someone else to get to know
boy..One day,girl decided that the pretending have to
stop.. So girl admit to boy who she really is..Boy got
pissed..Throw harsh comments at girl..Few weeks past..
Girl still can't get over boy..'Cuz girl told me she love
boy..And then girl read something on boy's blog post,
about him missing someone he can call his own..How
much he missed the touch of love,being in love and
being loved.. Boy wrote that he felt empty..Girl has as
if given up..But yet,she doesn't want to..

Now...Now..That's not as bad as in Case Number Two : Girl
knows boy for almost a year or so...Boy treated her as
if she has a chance..Then girl found out that boy was
with someone else for a few months while was so called
"giving girl a chance".. Boy didn't tell girl the truth..
Instead acted as if nothing ever happened..Girl read
on that someone else's blog about the happenings..Her
heart got broken.. She was mad,furious and at the
same time,she felt used..Stupid.. Unappreciated..She felt
like an IDIOT..For pouring her love on boy and get
this in return...Oh..I almost forgot..Boy was aware of
girl's feelings towards him throughout the whole
process..Still,he acted as if NOTHING happened..And,
oh,did I mentioned that THEY weren't even in a
relationship with each other?Girl was left hanging and
waiting..Buhh.. -_-"

So here's the question..Who Suffers more?Who has the greatest
sufferings?Girl in Case One or girl in Case Two?Anyway..Aside
with who suffers more than who..The bottom line is...Both
girls have to let go..Whether they want it or not..It's not
healthy to keep holding on to someone who doesn't reciprocate
your feelings..To both girls..If you're reading this..Here's what
I can say to you..

To love does not means to have..And having does not mean
loving..It is hard to let go..To see the person you love is in
the passionate arms of another girl. To see that the girl in
HIS passionate arms is not you..It's heartbreaking.. But
we're mere humans...Never escapes from making mistakes
and taking wrong steps..Instead of mourning over it..Make
the best out of it..Learn through it..Learn not to hate him in
order to be able to let go much easier.. Learn to open your
heart to others even though you don't want to throw the love
for him just yet,you still want to hang on to it.I say go ahead..
Just DO NOT restrict yourself from getting to know others
around you..Who might be the one for you..God sent..

Remember,you too deserve a shot at happiness..You deserve
to smile..Be happy and loved..Doesn't matter if you're tall,
short,fat,skinny,beautiful or ugly..Anybody can be in love..
Everyone can be in love..Because love is true ( Cinta itu hakiki ) ..
Occupy yourself with positive activities..Go retail therapy
with your girlfriends (those who're very positive)..You feel a
little positive when you hang out with positive people..It's
their positive aura that got to you...Get to know yourself better
with a little help from your hobby..If you like to photograph,
then,snap away!Small things like this can help in the long run..
If that doesn't help much..

My suggestion,why don't you write down on a piece of paper
what's on your mind..Every little thing..That is bothering you
and giving you sleepless nights..What you'll miss about
"him"...What he's done to you..And what you hope to fulfill
about the matter..Like example,you wish to forget him or so..
Then,when you are really ready...Burn that piece of paper..Cry
if you must while burning it..Reckon that you are letting "him"
go..Letting memories of "him" go..All's left are ashes..Blow
it away..And it'll fly..Hopefully it goes the same for the
memories within you..

Be careful while burning,I don't want to be blame for any
house being on fire..Haha..Best wishes..Lots of love..I'll see
you when I see you...

3:55 PM Z

Sunday, January 17, 2010

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Hello Daisies!These past few days I've been
having a hard time getting some shut eye...
And...It's a perfectly,utterly pathetic condition.
When someone can't get some sleep,it will
always be due to some matters that lingers
in their mind..That is bothering them.I can't
really say out what's bothering me.I don't want
to..Some things are better left unsaid..Better
left for me to carry it alone..I don't want people
to have to carry MY burden along with me.

But what I can say is that,this thing is very dear
to me..It's much much more personal than personal.
No one can never escape the ups and downs of life.
No one can escape from getting tangled up in a mess..
Be it someone else's mess or it's your own mess..The
matter that is giving me sleepless night is a mess....A
mess that I don't know with whom it started with
and when and how I got into the mess..Now..I am the
one who has to put an end to it..Why oh why!I didn't
start it so WHY should I end it?!

NO!I don't want to put an end to that mess!Never!
Since you started the mess.I'll make it end with
you..That is a promise..My promise!Come to think
about it again,this is a bit childish of me..Very
irrational..Unethical..I won't stoop as LOW as you!
So here's what I'll do..I will prove myself to you..
Then,we will see...Who's better than who..I'll make
sure I'll be far better than you..I know I am..I have
never fail in getting what I want MY way..I will
show you...Yes I will..

So there you have it..I've said my case and now
I'll rest my case..This is a promise and a sort of curse
I made to myself.If go beyond it,it'll eat myself up..
I promise that..I will keep my words...

9:34 PM Z

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

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I'll be back in School (ITE Simei) , on the 11th of
January 2010..'Cuz it's the "O" Level results!!!
And it also means it's about time I can apply for
my Higher Nitec course!!!Haha...Can't really
wait to get back to school..Study...While I still
can..Haha..

So...To those who knows me...Greet me aiight
on that day..Pick me up at the bus stop..Haha...
I'll update again what time I'll be coming down..

Lotsa love and misses to everyone,
Irah aka Darling aka Rose Yatimah..

10:49 PM Z

Friday, January 1, 2010

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Some pictures for the new year!!