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Saturday, April 17, 2010

.|.Al-Fatihah.|.

At first I thought it wasn't true..
It was so hard to believe..Achik
Spin has passed away..In a car
accident today at 6 pm..Right
now I'm in a state of shock..I just
listened to his songs earlier this
morning..Ya Allah..Ya Rabbi..
Subhanallah...

I guess what my mum said makes
sense..My mum said..Achik's and
Nana's love was parted by death..
Eventhough Nana was divorced..Achik
couldn't possibly divorce his wife..
So I guess my mum did make sense..
Their love was a case of till death
do us part..And death did do them part..

Innallillah wa innalillahi rhojiun...
Semoga dia ditempatkan di kalangan
mereka yang beriman dan disayangi
Allah..Semoga cintanya dan Nana
bersatu di kemudian hari..
Al-Fatihah

10:04 PM Z

.|.Boo Chak.|.

Hello hello Marshmallows! I was
worn out the whole week...Can't
even make it to work..So I'd rather
not promise something and not
turning up..That will just worsen
their situation..Right?So yesterday
in school,we were assign lockers to
choose..I didn't take any...'Cuz I
never liked using lockers..In my
previous years,I brought home all
my books..But only after I rejects
the locker..I found out that I can no
longer bring bags to the Beauty Lab..
'Cuz there's no more lockers in there
i guess...So you see..Comes Monday..
I have to ask my CA who has space
for me to share lockers with..What
The Hell lah!

That aside...Now My BLs..Haha..I
want to see you guys on the day
of the event..I don't care..For dinner
at least..I don't know for how much
longer we can all meet up frequently
with each other..But sooner or later,
we're bound to get busy with our own
schools and stuff..We're no longer in
the same school..But please promise
that you guys will stick around..And
we'll try to meet up once in a while..?
Please?

Labels: Looking Forward And Hoping

2:01 PM Z

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

.|.I Miss My BLians.|.

Hello Marshmallows!Second day of school
was great..We got along...We talked...And
we're friends now?Haha..Yeapp..Anyway..
I have been missing my fellow BLians..
Effing much...Those from my batch are
especially..I SMS-ed those that I'm
close to...Haha..And when they reliped..
We SMS-ed somemore about those times
we had..That made me even more sedih..
And made the other party sedih also..So
now,we're both sedih..Remembering those
times when we used to just hung out after
class at either SAC or the BL Room...Alot
of funny moments..Quarelling moments...
Cries and laughters..Pouring our hearts out
about any problems..Aaahh...Those were
the times...That are greatly cherished...

Now I really wished that I can meet up with
them real soon..I can't take it any longer...
I miss you : Nelly,Yan,David,Fina,Matt,Adi,
Farhanah,Faiz.K,Faiz.O,Nad.z,Margaret,
Jayvier,Aidyl,Hisham,Wan,Meera,Meiza
and those who were from the 2008 batch..
Maira...Mar..And a few more who's name I
have come to forget...I miss 2008 and I
miss those from it's time... )':

Labels: Misses | Separuh Jiwaku Hilang..

9:01 PM Z

Monday, April 12, 2010

.|.=(.|.

Hey Daisies...Today was my first day of
my higher nitec course..As usual..Went
through once again the orientation
period...It sucks big time!Firstly..The
new BLs weren't fully equipped..They
were as if not given the proper training..
They don't know what the heck they're
suppose to do..There weren't any seniors
handling the class with the juniors..So you
see...No one to guide them..How??They do
not project any leadership qualities..They
were not organized...I pity Mr.Liang...
Quality level = Down the drains...

Sorry! But it's the truth...My class..Well...
What do you expect..We're the progression
class...Obviously we have our own cliques..
But by the end of the day..Some of them
were nice enough to make friends with Dew,
Nico and me..My Class Adviser is a new
lecturer..And so I don't really know how she
is and how she will be...Though she do seemed
nice..

Right now..I felt shrunken..So discouraged..
I don't know why...It's stupid,come to think
about it...Somehow,I wished I had someone.
To call mine..Be mine...To listen to my every
heart's pour..To encourage me..To lift me up
when I'm down..To be my other half..Be my
eyes when I'm blinded..Be my heart when I
lost it..Be my voice when...When I have a sore
throat??LOL...Someone to pour his love,care
on me...And I...I'll be his every smile..His
every laughter..His every cries...His every
problem..His every answer...His every support
in return..So at times like this..When I'm
feeling down all of a sudden...I have someone
to coax and console me...Adakah aku ni
kurang perhatian??Kurang kasih sayang??
Hmmphh...We'll see what the future holds
for me..And we'll see what it presents me
with as it slowly unfolds...

STOP!!! Enough of this mushy mushy-ness
Irah!!You've got to step up your game..
Get over and done with,with whatever you
planned to do...Focus babe..Focus...

Oh yeah!Today..Like finally!The Lovelies
reunited!!!All three of us finally get to sit
together..On one table..Had a few laughs..
Shared a few stories..Oh I miss them so
much!!I miss those times we used to hang
out doing nothing but scrutinizing people...
Hehe...I miss those lame laughing sessions...
I miss those videos making sessions...I just
miss US and everything that we would
usually do!!

Over and done with feeling crappy!!
I'm gonna get back on my feet..Cover my
feeling crappy-ness...Put a strong front...
Do what I love doing..What I want to do..
Ace in it..Be it studying..Or other thing...Like...
Like...When the time is right you'll know on
your own..

O on the U to the T

OUT!

Labels: Feeling Crappy... =(

6:17 PM Z

Saturday, April 10, 2010

.|.IFMYSM.|.

Yes yes yes!! I Fucking Miss You So Much!!
I miss my Lovelies!Period..I went out just
now..Reason given : to get my school
supplies..Asked Love along..So we meet up
at abt 6..I think..Went around getting
ourselves pens and highlighters in various
color...Then bought foods to munch..Sat at
a spot somewhere...Talked and laughed...
And that feels awesome!!Thank you sayang
ku for the last minute and short meet up...
Talked about foods..School...Studying..Work..
And some other stuff...Thereafter,went back
to Tampines 1...Nature's call..Haha..Did some
more walking..

While I was telling Sentosa Stories to Qin,I
bumped into Mokhsein..Not Mokhsein my
cousin..Mokhsein that lived near my area..

Went around and I was telling Qin about Pak
Meon..Haha...Oh gosh..Haha..Meon oh Meon!
Haha!Okay..Stop it with Meon k!

Anyway..While I was out..Marina texted me...
Her Aunt just passed away..Innallillah
Wa'innallillahi Rhojiun..May Allah blessed her
soul..Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin..

11:12 PM Z

Friday, April 9, 2010

.|.Sweet And Salty.|.

Here I am...Again..Buhh...Just got back from
work..Didn't really realise that time passes..
But I was super "lemau" today...Fina was in
the same "cruise" with me..Haha..Ended at
5 p.m..Changed and head to Wisma to
accompany Fina who's collecting Tham's
Laptop..While waiting for the ques number,
we were both hungry and sleepy..What a
combination!So after that we went to KFC..
Matthew OI!! We had KFC chicken again oi!
I fed my baby twice with it's chicken..How?
Have you even feed your baby once?

In two days time..I'll start my school again...
It is a much awaited event 'cuz I really am
looking forward to achieve my Higher Nitec
cert...I know I can endure another 2 years of
studying..Right now..I'm just a lil' shaken..'Cuz
it's been almost half a year I hung my uniform..
I'm glad that I'm given the spot..I know how
lucky I am..I know that I deserved it...Yet
somehow something is pulling me back..Arhgg!
To hell with it!I'm gonna stick with it..Move up
ahead with it..Prove myself to those who looked
down upon me...Prove myself..To myself...I'm
not going to look back anymore..Like it or not..
It's for my own good..I have a family to think of..
I have a family to take care of and support..I
have a whole future awaiting..I have my whole
life to assure..Assure that my family,kids and
especially my mum,get the very best out of
everything..I want to give them the best..And
only that..Nothing less...Even if it means I will
lose myself along the way..Even if it means I
will hurt myself...As long as those I loved
around me doesn't get hurt,that's fine by me..

So now...I'm gonna have to take a deep breath..
Relax..Stay cool..And...STUDY LIKE MAD
HELL!!! Hahaha...

STUDYstudySTUDYstudySTUDYstudySTUDYstudy

10:03 PM Z

Thursday, April 8, 2010

.|.Im Not Angry....|.

Yo Yo! Aksi Mat Yoyo?Haha..Okay..Achoo!
I just sneezed..Shiat!Not getting any worse
but neither am I getting any better...So
how?Die! Haha...For the whole week I was
like a zombie...Imagine that..Today,work
was normal..Tomorrow..Another story..
Sham still keep asking me if I'm pregnant...
NO!! Okay...LOL...Anyway thanks for the
care & concern...

Pak meon...Surprisingly...Very easy to talk
to..But I'm lost for sentences...Haha!How?

Tomorrow stationed at Beach..With Fina...
At 8.30 a.m shift...Morning morning wakey
wakey..Mati mati...At 1 a.m I'm still wide
awake..Haha..Haish...Orang banyak pergi
sebab rasanya merajuk kot...That's how I see
it..Orang terkilan..Kecil hati...Buhh...

Meera...Meera...Meera...Aku tak marah...
Bukan aku kalau aku marah..I know what
I said..And I'm aware that I can be harsh
with my words..I know that fact..And that
is why I'm not a lil' affected at all...And..I
type what I typed not 'cuz I'm angry..But
it's because I want you to realise..I want
you to wake up..Time is chasing after us...
Therefore make good use of it...Fill it with
meaningful actions and doings..It's been a
while that I wanted to talk to you..But the
fact that you'll refuse to listen,made me
hold it back..One of these days..We shall
ALL have a good peaceful and meaningful
talk with each other...

Kita tak selamanya muda..Kita tak
selamanya sihat..Selagi kita dianugerahi
kudrat dan kemampuan,jangan sesekali
kita mempersia-siakannya...Kerana kita
dikurniakannya hanya sekali...Make full
and good use of your life..

Nak dengar...Dengar...Tak nak dengar...
Tak apa...

11:54 PM Z

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

.|.Say It Girl.|.

Hello Sunshines! Found out that Erman
is no longer working...Today was Yasser's
last day..Tomorrow's Taufiq's last day...
Of working at Sentosa..Whoah! Orang-
orang gerek semua satu persatu angkat
kaki..Lusa entah siapa pula ya...?It's
kind of like a wow situation..I'm awed..
A lil' sad..To see those faces,whom has
been good colleagues and friends...Haish..
Nevermind that..There's facebook now!

Second thing...To Meera..Sesungguhnya
aku tak terkilan,segan,takut atau serba
salah..You pretty darn well know that I
have a laser pointed mouth..I say what I
want to say..'Cuz it's the fact..Kalau you
rasa sedih..Fikir balik..Baik lu dengar dari
mulut gua,dari lu dengar dari mulut orang
yang tak kenal lu langsung..Baik lu dengar
depan depan,dari lu dengar orang cakap
pasal lu belakang belakang..Which will hurt
more?Grow up girl..Life won't be sugary
sweet all the time..It's time you stand up
and accept the fact..

If I said something that have made you
sad..Confront me...Ask me why I said
what I said..Kalau aku say it straight to
you..Kau boleh terima?You won't listen
baybe..You won't..Orang bahasa bahasa-
kan kau sebab they care..Kau kata kau
happy with the way you dress up when
you go out..Okay..Fine...That's good..But
dear,presentation is key..Impression at the
first sight matters...Even if you just can't
be bothered..At least..The least you can do
is just take care of ur well being..Kau kena
ingat..Kita ni perempuan...Macam mana
buruk kita rasa diri kita ni pon,kita tetap
kena jaga diri kita..Memang tak ada satu
hamba Allah yang sempurna..Tapi kedaifan
kita tu kita boleh perelokkan..Kita boleh
cover kan sana sikit,sini sikit..Sekurang-
kurangnya sedap mata memandang..Sejuk
telinga kita dengar...

Sekiranya diri kita dah memang dilahirkan
buruk,takkan kita nak terus menerus diamkan
diri kita ni terus buruk..Betul tak?We can do
something about it right...So take those small
steps..Take initiative to sekurang-kurangnya
kemaskan diri kita..

It's pretty obvious that aku ni pon tak
se-sempurna mana...I have my flaws...But
not everyone needs to know that...Take pride
in yourself...Hargai harga diri kau...Sebab ia-
nya tak ternilai...Aku bukan nak kata aku
good uh..Aku pon tak bagus mana...Tapi aku
cuba hargai apa yang ada pada aku..Kalau
yang kurang,boleh tambah..Kalau yang dah
ada,boleh diperbaiki..Kalau yang dah hampir
sempurna,embrace it..When people praise
you..Don't be so humble..It's good to be humble..
But when you're praised,smile and say thank
you.Accept what people say about you..Don't
always refuse it and says no,I'm not what you
say..

Aku rasa itulah yang membezakan anak-
anak kita dan anak anak orang barat..When
they are praised,they say thank you..That
builds up their self esteem..I learnt from
them..That's why my self esteem isn't as low
as when I was in primary school...Go ahead
and indulge in yourself..It's not wrong to be
a lil' arrogant,to be a lil' confident...

Lepas ni..Terpulang pada kau nak tetap
anggap aku sebagai kawan atau lawan..I don't
mind losing a friend as long as you wake up..
At least I lose knowing that eventhough you
hated me,but at least I changed you...

Pride,Honour & Dignity..It Has No Price If
You Don't Know How To Nurture,Care &
Held It High...

Walk With Your Head High,'Cuz You Know The
Effort You've Put In,Eventhough People Say
That You're Not Even Close To Good...

11:58 PM Z

Monday, April 5, 2010

.|.Pakaian Aku Cukup Cool Hari Ini.|.

Hey ya beloved daisies..Today was suppose
to have meet up with my BLians at 10 a.m..
To collect our EAGLES award cheque..But
since both Fina and I were sick..It was
postponed to 2 p.m..So went to Bedok and
waited for Fina..Then head to school...Took
our much deserved cheques and went off to
Bugis..Had lunch..Waited for Saloma a.k.a
Nad.zerg..Then went for a lil' walk..Super
slow walk lah..'Cuz both Fina and I took med.
Went to took some pictures..

Then went on to do more slow walking around
Bugis before heading home..Reached home..
Online..MSNed with Fina..And we talked
about doing a so called shoot..Where we dress
up and feeling feeling super model...Haha!And
the dress code was..Whatever lah..Up to you
individuals..And I told Fina that I wanna wear
what I wore today..Just that I wanna wear it
with a pair of heels..'Cuz this is what I thought
of my clothing today...

Pakaian aku Cukup Cool Hari Ini.
Translation..
My clothing is cool enough today.

That is why you see those status on Fina's and
mine,on Facebook..This is what it's all about...
Haha...So here's the gambar aku CCHI..

Darling O-U to the T! Out baybeh!

Labels: Pakaian Aku CCHI

12:44 PM Z

Sunday, April 4, 2010

.|.Lost For Words.|.

I'm totally blank now..Don't know what
to update on..Okay..Work was hectic...
Crazy..And Funny...Plus I was sick all
throughout the week..And people there
have been asking what have I done
lately till I kept feeling giddy and felt
like throwing up..Sham the train captain
ask me with all the hands gesture whether
I am pregnant..And 'cuz of that..Most of
the people that walk pass will look at me
and asks me "are you okay?" / "throw up,
giddy..what did you do??" and gave me THAT
look...Haiyoh...*Irah shakes head*

What the hell lahs! I am not pregnant okay!
Haha..Im just sick..Fever come and go..For
the whole week...That is why!

12:37 PM Z