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Sunday, May 2, 2010

.|.Verge Of Breaking Down.|.

I cried two days ago..I cried myself to bed
for the past two days...I don't know why...
But I felt so incomplete...I felt..I felt that I
lack of something..Then I realised..How much
had happened within the 19 years of my
life...And how much I've missed something
for that time of my life...I cried 'cuz even
without knowing how it felt to have a
Father,I miss having one to call my own
Father...It would've been 360 degrees
different...




To grew up without a Father is a challenge
that God hold upon me..I've dealt with it
for 19 years..And doing well...But why now?
Why now,when I'm almost 20 that I felt how
much of an emptiness it has been?After so
much that I have put up with,this is the
one thing that has made me a weakling...I
just wanna cry...I just wanna let it out..
I know things happen for a reason..And I
know God wouldn't test someone whom HE
knows can't bear with it...I'm not complaining..
Nor am I blaming..It's just...I wish I could
feel how it feels to have a complete family,
to have a Father..Even though for a day...




Everyday I put up a smile..Everyday I sound
a laughter..Everyday I never fail to show that
nothing can bother me..Yet everyday,it's eating
me up slowly...Lately..I can't endure it..I wish
I could run away and go missing..But running
away is not going to settle anything..I have to
face it and get over it..I know that time can
never be turn..I know that I'm not the only one
without a father...I just hope these sober moment
will go away soon...I so hate this feeling...I don't
want it to further affect me...




Dear God,
Make this child of yours a stronger person...You
have made me a strong person for the whole 19
years I've breathed...Don't make me fall down..
Guide me with Your love,Your strength and Your
eyes..Put me somewhere,where I know I'm worth..
Put me somewhere,where I know that I can forget
all that has made me shed my tears...




Jadikan hambaMu ini seseorang yang tegar..Pimpin
aku supaya ku sentiasa tidak merasakan kekurangan
yang ada pada diriku...Sinarilah daku dengan cahaya
kasihMu,cahaya petunjukMu dan cahaya imanMu...
Amin...

2:23 PM Z


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