♥Lustful♥The Girl Every Girl Wants To Be

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

.|.Put You Act Together Sister!.|.

You! Hey! Yeah you! God..Girls...Girls...Girls....We can be the ones
ruling the world,we can also be the one who are just stupid at times..
Yes..We can be SO stupid that I really don't know what to say
when I encounter one stupid incident..Here's the thing..I don't
know if you're reading my blog,but if you do..I'm sorry babe..But I
need to knock some sense..

This friend of mine..Met someone over the weekend..Kinda fell for
him..They exchange numbers and all...She was on cloud nine
thinking that he too likes her (I know at this point I'm starting to sound bitchy)
and when she soon found out that he only regards her as a lil' sister
and that he recently got back with his ex,she was heartbroken..Like
unbelievably heartbroken..Ya'll know the kind of heartbroken
whereby long relationships are involved?Like those 6 years or so..
Yeah..Those kind...I mean,c'mon..You can go ahead and like some-
one you've just met..But any girls know that its only the attraction
of the hormones..Especially those first few meetings..Nothing can be
based upon feelings just yet...It's attraction based on lust..A nicer
word would be desire..

We've all been there I'm pretty sure of it..I've been there myself..And
I pretty well know that we make these kinds of mistakes way back in
our secondary days..Back when we're younger,naive,vain as ever and
stupid... -_-" Yes..Those were the glorified horrified days..I have
done that mistake of falling for someone whom I just met..And was
utterly entertaining my own feelings..Which of course,flown me over
the moon before crash landing me on the road called heartbreak
avenue..

Surely we all learn something from there,don't we?NEVER put high
hopes,correction,DON'T even hope for anything with someone you
just met..What more,yet to know..Lets talk serious shit here..You've
been in more relationship than I have,you should know better than
me..Don't tell me you've learnt nothing from your past relationships?
We're big enough to know what's good and what's bad,what's right
and what's wrong and we definitely are big enough to differentiate
between "falling in loving" and "attracted" to someone..And don't
tell me it's cause maybe you're lonely...Don't gimme that crap..Yes,
we all need coaxing and pampering from that someone we call
special..We need to be loved and cared for..From the other half..

Keep it real,girl..Don't fall to be someone who's desperate for love
and attention..Wake up..If you're lonely..Have you ever thought of
those who are left ALONE by their loved one..Those who have nobody
else to depend on..Those who are abandon and unwanted by the
whole world (their circle of world that is)?Now they're lonely.. If you're
lonely..Think again..You have people around you who care,those
who would accompany you in laughter and tears alike..The right
person will come when the time is right..Okay..Maybe he came in
when you're feeling like crap..So what?! That does not gives you the
liberty to waste yourself,girl..

Girl,you're not gonna be a girl for any longer..You're gonna grow to
being a woman...Make sure you bring your mentality to growth as
well...I know you're smart..Don't let me think otherwise..

If you're single and you wanna use that as a reason to waste yourself..
Give one wake up slap for yourself...I'm single too,but that doesn't
give me the reasons to let myself get hurt..Being single gives you the
chance to explore the possible possibilities out there..Just like food...
You don't just go to one place and get yourself the same cuisines over
and over again,right? You taste cuisines from all over the island..Only
when you have tasted enough that you will go back to the ones that
captured your tastes buds..Don't get me wrong..I'm not asking you to go
around with boys and go breaking their hearts..I'm just telling you to
embrace being single..Embrace who you're able to meet and get to
know..You'll never be able to know as much people as you can when
you're tied..You know what I mean..There's always restrictions....

Go ahead and enjoy life...Keep a positive attitude..Do what you loved
doing most and see what being single and "lonely" brings to your
doorstep...You'll never guess what the future holds for you..

XoXo
I'll see you when I see you

8:33 PM Z

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

.|.HAPPY 20TH TO ME!!.|.

21st September!! My digits just hit the 2...Yes..I have officially turned 20
today...Gawd!!2-0!! Shiat...Ouh well...Life has to go on..Like stars in
Hollywood...I'll always be 17...Hihik..So yeah..To top the chart off,I have
received a huge amounts of digits as well on my e-mail and my facebook
wall...And here are the lists...

E-mails - 160 E-mails received
It came in continuously,so I can't be bothered to read it up...Because it all
came from one cause for on one matter...Facebook..

Yes..those were the digits of my facebook notifications...After much eye sores
from continuous refreshing of page,this is the lucky numbers that I have
accumulated!

Birthdays wishes - 91 wishes

I wonder if I'd hit 100 by midnight?? HAHAHA!! Too ambitious!91 is already
a gigantic amount of wishes for one to receive..Okay!Breaking news...The
numbers just went up..Its 93 now...There we go..93 is a BIG amount of wishes
to be getting...And truly..I'm in awe and I'm sincerely touched...Hence I made
the effort to actually replied each one of the wishes...Yes I did...For a moment
there I felt like a star...For a moment though...For a moment...

I'd like to say thank you to each and every one of those 93 people who wished
me on my 20th birthday... THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

I'd also like to say an even greater thank you to Nur Ashiqin Aziz,for the little
surprise mini celebration you brought to my doorstep...Yeah..She came to my
house,with a cake..Made me blow candles...And a sweet present from her...

Babe,I'm really touched by what you've done today..I am blessed to have some-
one like you as a best friend...I wasn't expecting that,nor did I see it coming...I
really had a good time today..The gift..Is just so beautiful..Loved it so so much..
Thank you...That's all that I can say..I have no words that can describe my
gratitude and feelings...I love you and you know that...Thank you once again...
*love*

A shout out to my "favourite" nephew,Haikal,don't think he'll read my blog..But
anyway,this is for him who shares the same birthday as me..Three years apart...
Happy 17th birthday to you bodoh! May you be a better and not so "SELENGE"
after these years to come..AMIN!!

Happy 20th to me..Thank you 93 people! Godd bless you all...God Bless Singapore...
God bless America! and god bless the whole universe...

11:13 PM Z

Friday, September 17, 2010

.|.Boo huhu.. :(.|.

Yes...Boo huhu...I received an SMS from ________ saying that I'm one of the
shortlisted models for a catwalk show on the 25th of September..And was
informed to go for fitting on the 19th..Sadly,I have to reject it..With a heavy,a
really really heavy heart as I have to work on the day of the show..So there is
no way for me to not go to work and go for the show..I'm super down now..That
catwalk show was like THE much awaited opportunity..THE opportunity of a
lifetime to finally get a chance of being exposed...And yet I have to shrug it off...
*bangs head on keyboard*

Why oh why it has to clash...Can I cry?Okay..So I told the lady in charge that
I'm deployed for work..And that I'm truly sorry for not telling her earlier..As I
typed that reply text and finishes it with "maybe I can work with you for future
events"..I was reluctant and hesitating to hit the "send" button...But.....I did it
anyway...*slaps face hard* That's life...You gotta make choice that you might
not like to make..You pushed opportunities for you're obligated to another...
Though it's hard and bitter,you either swallow it like a woman/man or you go
blind crying and get left out regretting like a sissy pussy...Get it?

Okay...I'm so not gonna spend time getting all worked up and sad and being
overly disappointed..I'll get over and done with right here right now...And
when I finally post this entry...I'll take a deep breathe and have a little faith
that I didn't make any wrong decisions or wrong moves..Peace out...Go out???
Hahaha! Whatever kiddies!

XoXo
I'll see you biatches when I see you!

5:58 PM Z

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

.|.Lost For Words.|.

I don't know where to start off...Okay...First of all..Congrats to my dear friend
Tini,for getting your hands held again..I do wish and pray for the best for you
sweetspie..She got her hands held on her 20th birthday,which was on the 11th
of September..What a present!I have yet to receive mine...Oh!I'm turning 20
as well...Like real soon..In a week's time..Can I not turn 20?just yet...Haha...
That's so not gonna happen..

Mundane Monday was when I had my one and only paper that I had to sit through..
Been mugging for the few nights prior..And finally it's done!I think I did well for
it..Hopefully I will get a pleasing result...*fingers crossed* Now that that's done,
I'm having my term break..Till,the 12 of October if I'm not mistaken..I'll be involve
in the F1 event this year..So that's a birthday present for me..It's happening on the
24 to 26 September 2010..Which is 3 days after my 20 birthday..Guess my holiday
are pretty much taken up with events and stuff...

I've a briefing to attend on the 22nd September for my Blaze II Camp,held over
in Bintan from 4th to 7th October..And in between I have "meetings" to attends..
With an associate of mine..Yeah..There goes my holiday...

Holidays and schedules aside...This year..I have no clue as to why,I hated Hari Raya
so much..I feel like the grinch of Christmas...Except that,I'm the "grinch" of Hari
raya..I hate when people come to my house..I hate when my mum ask me out to go
visiting..I HATE when people celebrates Hari Raya..Goodness!Somebody gimme a
hard spanking!It's just that feeling of being so annoyed,so intimidated by the whole
Hari Raya thingy....

Oh..last thing before I go..Mum talks about boyfriend with me...THAT'S SOMETHING
YOU DONT'T GET EVERYDAY! Hahaha! Yes..My Mum talks about boys as in,boys
boys..Get it?Oh...Forget it...

XoXo

11:54 PM Z